A writer's heart.

I’ve found myself, over the years, drifting farther and farther away from my love + gift of writing. I do it just enough to keep up and to exercise it lightly. But I stay at the shore. Never wandering into the depths or opening myself up to the possibility of getting lost in the waves.

I haven’t missed it.

Until now.

When I realize how much I’ve filled in my life and all the ways I write to add value to others or to just share whats going on in our life, but never really to fulfill, in any part, the gift God has given me in writing.

I’ve been reading. Yes, I love reading as an adult. (Not so much as a child.) And I’ve been floored by the creative and unique authors I have come across. I’m amazed at their talents and think to myself how I could never write like they do.

But…

1. I shouldn’t. I should write like I do.

2. I don’t take the time to adequately delve into my writing to see where it could take me and what secrets are locked inside of me.

And I recently came to the acceptance that I have almost completely set MY TRUE writing to the side. For years.

I write on Instagram.

I write on facebook.

I write on my blog.

I write for my businesses.

I write in my journal. But I even rush there.

I’ve filled the spots of my life that used to be used for writing, with everything else. And maybe, for a season, that is okay. Because life is full and wonderful and I pursued some very wonderful endeavors throughout that time. But you also can become weakened in areas that you don’t exercise regularly. And I noticed my slow decline of inspiration and motivation in the area of writing.

I finished writing content for my book. And have shelved that project for 2ish years now. I still don’t really have a release date set yet, or really know where my heart and mind are on the book itself. What content I really want to fill its pages. To write it for others, but also for myself. But mostly, and overall, for God.

My constant adding of more to my life has made less room for the things I really love and want to pursue, so maybe, in a way, this is my public announcement of my heart to return to writing. For all the reasons. But mostly, to slow down. To think. To pause. And to pour my heart out onto a page.

Here we go…